Heartbreak

People think their heart is broken only when something bad happens. Not enough reading of the ancient Greeks, anymore, I guess.

It’s all in the thinking. You’re sad now and again. You think it’s not normal to be sad. You ask the doctor or the bartender or the politician to make you whole. They cure nothing. Feeling happy isn’t being happy. Ballroom dancing on the Titanic helps pass the time, but that’s about it. Better to check your rivets and your course than go to Arthur Murray.

To be heartbroken is to be separated from the scene of your happiness. Happiness is a situation, not a condition. The situation must be assembled from the tatty bits of this world over and over. It is the cook, not the philosopher, that we must look to. One must not starve to death waiting for the food.

One of the ingredients is now missing in the mornings. The first course disappears all day, already. The cooking is more difficult with the larder bare. I was happy, of course, the whole time my heart was breaking.